the fix

itsa fixed my heart itsa fixed

my heart

I think I have now answered a question that is long been waiting to be answered.....a heart can literally break...not in the sense of a heart attack but it can feel like it is breaking..... my heart is. It hurts everyday and I don't know why I mean I have no friends but that is my own doing right I was stupid I was dumb I only have my FUCKING SELF TO BLAME and now my college best friend won't talk to me......I think i scared her I'm such a fucking idiot

the horrible week

SO not to be bitching about everything but this week has been horrible. There was really only one good thing and that was that someone decided to folllow my fanfic. But other than that it has been horrible and I am not looking forward to anything anymore. Everything is just si hard and I wish people would start pushing us its like friggin daycare in here. I need a challenge. My parents thought I was going mental when I wanted to go to boarding school. I WANTED to go! Does wanting to go to boarding school suddenly mean you have a complex or something. what the hell. Oh well hopefully something cheers me up.

So I have taken to typing in different color i think it is very relaxin and I love it.....I am also listening to music. Does anyone know how to get from CD to youtube?

SO I'm failing out of college and its not fun at all!

now this college thing is really getting to me i think that i just need to chill out and step back and not worry about anything....although i do not want to take my major class....sigh.....when will it all end all these midterms and such i hate them all.

Anyone want to help with a paper or at least give tips for writing papers? Would be very helpful